New Tires and the Saturday in the Park with Dan

Thursday morning was spent at the mechanics. My mother finally sprung for 2 new tires which I was very grateful for. I got up early so I wouldn't have to wait but I was still there for about 2 hours listening to people talk about their ideals when it came to raising children, one of whom was a republican. I don't have anything against republican except their political views of course but yo republicans in the south make me nervous. Anyway, I had been there for about a half an hour when one of the mechanics came to the sitting area and asked me if I had the impala. The woman sitting in the seat one over was a relative of his, and so he had her move her stuff. He starts telling me all this bad stuff about my car. How my breaks were shot, that the pads were gone and the breaks we basically metal-to-metal. He tells me that there seemed to be a catch in my breaks, that every time the other mechanic put on the breaks, the wheels face out. He told me that the wheel rod was bent and that when you see cars bent under, that was why. So I'm hearing all this and I am freaked out. I kept think "I'm going to have to call y dad and tell him this. Do we have the money for this? How am I going to get home?" I keep trying to look over at the sheet he has in his hand and I'm a little confused at this point because there are things on there that don't apply to my car. Like written in capital letters were the words DON'T ROLL DOWN DRIVER WINDOW and the sheet says that I asked for a break check. Plus I couldn't see my dad's name on it any where. Finally I ask him "Is this my impala?" and he looks over at the sheet. "This isn't your name?" I shook my head. He then pats my knee and says " Well the I have bad news to give to someone else. Now you know how important it is to take care of your car." I finally started breathing again.

Friday I subbed again for Laura. I taught 2 Spanish classes which wasn't as bad as I thought. I had the third grade again, but the crazy half of the class. It went alright until the end when they got so loud that one of the girls in the class was in physical pain. She had an oratory problem that I wasn't aware of. Whenever I go in that class I am always afraid of that teacher. Every time I go there it seems that someone asks me to sub for them which is great but I ended up saying I could sub for 2 people next week forgetting that I am going to New York on Tuesday. So excited! Should be great considering 95% of my friends can't be bothered to see me on the weekend.

Today Dan and I had a mini-photo shoot with some of the stuff I made in the park. I just opened a shop at Etsy.com under the name Morgaine Le Fay and I'm hoping to get it up and running soon. I'm really excited about the possibility of having a shop but I'm just nervous that I will make things that people wont want to buy. I'm going to just keep making what I like and hopefully people will like it. I do realize that I have a ton of baby stuff, but no baby to model it, so if anyone has one let me know.

Dan, Chris and I went to the Atlanta Greek Festival which was great. I haven't spent that much time with him so it was nice to do that. I just remember the festival being so much more when I was younger, but really it's food and music with some shops inside the Church with a play area for kids. It was fun I just thought there would be more. Oh well at least it got me out of the house.

On to plan B

SO I didn't get Teach for America. It sucks but I know if I was meant to teach then I will find a way to teach. I am happy that at least I know my application was stronger this year. I took the time to put together an appropriate resume and wrote and re-wrote the essay. I just think my GPA was too low for them to even consider me. I feel like I'm the kind of person who doesn't look good on paper. Once you get to know me, I'll have to know that I am pretty awesome but I guess I'm not all that great at presenting myself in 2-d form.



Any who, very tired today. I've had to get up at 6:40 the past 3 days which wouldn't be so bad if I actually went to bed before 12:30. I am a substitute teacher at my old elementary school. So far it's been great. They just moved in to this new building that works so well. I started at the school when there were in their 2nd year and stayed there for 9 years, K-8. It great being back there, I forgot what a great place it was. Many of my teachers are still there so it's a little weird, cause it feels sometimes as if I shouldn't be in the teachers lounge or there are people who I should be answering to, that I'm not an authority figure for these kids.



But anyway, I was subbing for the third grade and I am fairly sure that I do not want to teach the third grade. It wasn't terrible but it was a great deal of work. The thing is, is that there are 2 third grade classes and it became very apparent to me that they have 2 different teaching styles. The woman I was subbing for seems to have a more fluid teaching style while the other is more strict. I didn't mind it's just I felt a pull between what it seemed like I was supposed to do and what the other teacher wanted. Either way things got done, and I learned a lot about dealing with 3rd graders. I'm excited though I get to go back again next week. :)



I forgot how imaginative kids where. I was sitting on the swings and this girl kept talking about how she hoped the trolls weren't there when she got down. And I heard to other girls talking about they had to get to the end of the rainbow to get some magical thing. The same girl with the troll issue told us later on that sometimes she hides from her mother and pretends she is a crying "African" baby. Yep definitely one of those moments when I had not clue what to say.

School's Out

I am offically out of school and yet the school systems is effecting my life. I work as a sub at my old elementary school and school was canceled today due to all the rain Atlanta has been getting. Google Atlanta Flood 2009, it's pretty epic. Instead I spent the entire day running errands for my mom. The funny part about that is, is that it didn't rain in the city of Atlanta all day. So in fact the schools gave a nice sunny day off to their students. Although it is very likely that there are families that are being effected greatly by all the rains and couldn't get in anyway.

I have been trying to plan my next crocheting venture. So far I am making a pair of fingerless gloves, different patterns than what I used before and a blanket for my friend Alicia and ma looking for the next thing. I think I want to make another sweater but to be honest that is not too exciting. Dan has suggegested a great name for my line of projects. I don't want to write it here in case someone steals it. No on reads this blog as of yet. But they will.

In other news, Will Ferrel has made a video about healthcare. Pretty good actually, celebs getting behind Obama usually works out well.

Protect Insurance Companies PSA from Will Ferrell

My blog isn't very interesting yet. I mean I find it interesting but then again it's a blog all about me. I had an idea of turning this into a play or a book and have pledged to write every day. Or at least try to. Who knows there might be some good stuff in here after a while. I've always wanted to write something and I have a lot of ideas, just haven't been able to execute them all that well. Maybe I'll find something here.

Cranky times at the homestead

I have been a bit cranky of late. That tends to happen when I am home for extended periods of time. I blame college. Yes college has made me selfish. 4 years of not having to explain myself to my parents, doing what I want when I want, where the only responsibilities I had were the ones I took on, has made me irritable when it comes to doing things that my parents ask. I forgot how much they ask questions about the most asinine things. They love details, I would rather not give them.

I also thought that me coming home would mean that I could do what I want. My parents are forever telling me that I'm an adult but I don't really feel like one. I am very grateful that my parents are more then willing to house me while I am figuring out what I want to no next but I think I'm going to need to move soon, or at least get a job that takes me away from home more. I deal with everything going on here when I leave the house. I'm getting antsy about cooking my own meals and seeing people who aren't my parents and visiting my friends from school. I miss being around people my own age. Which is why I am very excited about my potential trip to NYC in October. But there are red flags there too, because my Mom is also traveling and we can't really leave my dad alone. He has MS and it's hard for him to get around by himself although my mother would never admit it out loud. I figured it out by myself, but what's going to happen when I move away? I wont be in Atlanta forever. I don't mind helping, sometimes, but I don't feel like I'm living my life.

On a less cranky note, mom mother has been rather helpful if not pushy in some ways relating to my chosen career path and helped me to get free head shots. Here are a couple for your viewing pleasure.

A Very Potter Musical

Oh man...so I was perusing my friends facebook profile and I came across this link for a spoof Harry Potter musical...this is so EPIC. I watched the entire thing and loved it. It's a little hokey but mainly awesome. Here is first link.







In other news I finished my first baby sweater! All I need to do is add some buttons. Here are some pictures although I don't think they do it justice.

Youtube

So I am a huge youtube fan. I think most of things I post on my friends walls are youtube clips. I also love this other blog called text from last night and when those to combine...oh boy. So I was submitting a text for the first time and I looked at one of the more recent text on the right hand side of the page and there was one that said "I hope you guys are getting down like this girl". When I clicked over there was this awesome video.
In other news...still apply for jobs...still don't like waiting...hope something comes along soon.

Alright Alright!

So I have been very bad about posting to my blog but I am promising here and now to be better about that. And since I am not employed I think I can make good on that promise. As a measure of good faith, here are a few photos from my life. In other news, Camille is engaged. That's huge. And very exciting. Plus I have started making ipod and computer sleeves so look forward to that.

I have been a little depressed since camp ended. I don't like waiting to see what happens next and when I have to wait I tend to think about death alot more. It's like I can't see what's in between and the only sure thing I know is death. Pretty morbid I now but I can't help it. I wish it would stop too. It makes falling asleep difficult. Here's something more uplifting. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4vVdWHADKto

Urg!!!

I hate this economy. Well I can't decided if it is the economy or the fact that I think I am unemployable. I didn't get into grad school so I am looking for jobs. I didn't get one of my teaching jobs and I'm fairly sure that I wont get the other. I'm waiting to hear back from another another internship in Cali that I really hope I get. It's just after 4 years of college at a top liberal arts school, I would have hoped to have something to show for it besides my degree. There is something about being here that drives me to try and do things that make money and I forget that I want to own my own business or that my real dream would be to have my own kids television show. I have to be reminded of that all the time and I hate that.
For the next year I am going to just concentrate on this blog and my designs and do theater at home. I have to accept that taking a gap year between college and real life is okay.

Thanks for the ear :)

Spring Break

Spring break for two weeks! You know what that mean, movie and crochet-a-thon! Because my spring break is so late most of my friends are back in school so I'm home alot. I got some new patterns and my friend is going to do some modeling for me, so look forward to new tihngs!

I guess if everyone else jumped...

You know the drill, 25 facts, tag 25 people except I didn't feel like tagging that many...maybe later. Please note if things seem sad I am not looking for pity

1.) I was obsessed with jell pens in middle school. Seriously I had like 50.

2.) In high school I was part of a professional photographers collective and showed work in several professional shows.

3.) I read romance novels like it's my job. I have dozens, some of which I have read, but have no idea what they were about. In high school I was addicted. I am thankful that college has weened me of this addiction.

4.)I hate to lend out new books. Something about other people turning the pages first irks me.

5.) I don't like to talk on the phone to the point where in elementary school my mother thought I had no friends because I never called or invited them over.

6.) That being said I am a home body. I like to stay busy during the day but 9 times out of 10 at night you can find me in my room crocheting and watching shows on my computer.

7.) I love peanut butter to the point where I would have to do some serious soul searching if I ever fell in love with a man who was allergic to peanut butter. I hope I choose the man.

8.) I watch kids television even when I'm not babysitting. Part of it is research (I want to go into children's television) part of it is that it's entertaining. I love Lazy Town.

9.)Never had a boyfriend (shocking) but don't really feel the need to have one either.

10.) I like to buy books but not actually read them. My bookshelves at home is over flowing.

11.) I really wanted to be an author growing up but quite frankly I'm not a good writer.

12.) and I can't spell.

13.) I spend more time alone then I like, mainly because I'm always waiting for someone to come and find me.

14.)I really really really don't like Rachel Ray

15.) I really am a no fuss kind of girl. I love my t-shirts and jeans. I don't feel the need to impress people with clothing choices and I wish people would leave me alone about what I wear.

16.) I love the going to concerts. I love the mutual feelings of love for the musicians.

17.) I should be fluent in Spanish. I've studied Spanish from age 5-19 and my mother speaks it but I get flustered when speaking. I understand it really well.

18.) I am obsessed with the idea of having kids. I feel like that is the one thing I know for sure that is going to happen. I will raise at least one child even if I have to adopt. I have plans to become a foster parent. I have names already picked out.

19.) If you can already tell I love to read. I feel naked with out a book. When ever I leave the house I always have at least two with me.

20.) I know oddly alot about vibrators.

21.) I have a very active imagiantion which is why I can't see scary movies even now. I saw jaws when I was 8 and when it was time to go to bed I wouldn't stop crying until my dad came home and told me the movie wasn't real. And for the longest time I was convinced that sharks were in the vents at the deep end of the pool.

22.) The thought of dying scares me so I avoid thinking about it. I get really worked up thinking about it and the only people who can calm me down are my parents.

23.) I tried a bloody mary for the first time this year with my buddy Frank. Well it was a Vietnamese bloody mary and had to be the most painful drinking experience in a while. I think out friendship is stronger because of it.

24.)I am a closet Hansen fan.

25.) I still listen to the same music I listened to in 5th grade and I sometimes look back at the year as a golden time.