Cranky times at the homestead

I have been a bit cranky of late. That tends to happen when I am home for extended periods of time. I blame college. Yes college has made me selfish. 4 years of not having to explain myself to my parents, doing what I want when I want, where the only responsibilities I had were the ones I took on, has made me irritable when it comes to doing things that my parents ask. I forgot how much they ask questions about the most asinine things. They love details, I would rather not give them.

I also thought that me coming home would mean that I could do what I want. My parents are forever telling me that I'm an adult but I don't really feel like one. I am very grateful that my parents are more then willing to house me while I am figuring out what I want to no next but I think I'm going to need to move soon, or at least get a job that takes me away from home more. I deal with everything going on here when I leave the house. I'm getting antsy about cooking my own meals and seeing people who aren't my parents and visiting my friends from school. I miss being around people my own age. Which is why I am very excited about my potential trip to NYC in October. But there are red flags there too, because my Mom is also traveling and we can't really leave my dad alone. He has MS and it's hard for him to get around by himself although my mother would never admit it out loud. I figured it out by myself, but what's going to happen when I move away? I wont be in Atlanta forever. I don't mind helping, sometimes, but I don't feel like I'm living my life.

On a less cranky note, mom mother has been rather helpful if not pushy in some ways relating to my chosen career path and helped me to get free head shots. Here are a couple for your viewing pleasure.

A Very Potter Musical

Oh man...so I was perusing my friends facebook profile and I came across this link for a spoof Harry Potter musical...this is so EPIC. I watched the entire thing and loved it. It's a little hokey but mainly awesome. Here is first link.







In other news I finished my first baby sweater! All I need to do is add some buttons. Here are some pictures although I don't think they do it justice.

Youtube

So I am a huge youtube fan. I think most of things I post on my friends walls are youtube clips. I also love this other blog called text from last night and when those to combine...oh boy. So I was submitting a text for the first time and I looked at one of the more recent text on the right hand side of the page and there was one that said "I hope you guys are getting down like this girl". When I clicked over there was this awesome video.
In other news...still apply for jobs...still don't like waiting...hope something comes along soon.

Alright Alright!

So I have been very bad about posting to my blog but I am promising here and now to be better about that. And since I am not employed I think I can make good on that promise. As a measure of good faith, here are a few photos from my life. In other news, Camille is engaged. That's huge. And very exciting. Plus I have started making ipod and computer sleeves so look forward to that.

I have been a little depressed since camp ended. I don't like waiting to see what happens next and when I have to wait I tend to think about death alot more. It's like I can't see what's in between and the only sure thing I know is death. Pretty morbid I now but I can't help it. I wish it would stop too. It makes falling asleep difficult. Here's something more uplifting. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4vVdWHADKto

Urg!!!

I hate this economy. Well I can't decided if it is the economy or the fact that I think I am unemployable. I didn't get into grad school so I am looking for jobs. I didn't get one of my teaching jobs and I'm fairly sure that I wont get the other. I'm waiting to hear back from another another internship in Cali that I really hope I get. It's just after 4 years of college at a top liberal arts school, I would have hoped to have something to show for it besides my degree. There is something about being here that drives me to try and do things that make money and I forget that I want to own my own business or that my real dream would be to have my own kids television show. I have to be reminded of that all the time and I hate that.
For the next year I am going to just concentrate on this blog and my designs and do theater at home. I have to accept that taking a gap year between college and real life is okay.

Thanks for the ear :)

Spring Break

Spring break for two weeks! You know what that mean, movie and crochet-a-thon! Because my spring break is so late most of my friends are back in school so I'm home alot. I got some new patterns and my friend is going to do some modeling for me, so look forward to new tihngs!

I guess if everyone else jumped...

You know the drill, 25 facts, tag 25 people except I didn't feel like tagging that many...maybe later. Please note if things seem sad I am not looking for pity

1.) I was obsessed with jell pens in middle school. Seriously I had like 50.

2.) In high school I was part of a professional photographers collective and showed work in several professional shows.

3.) I read romance novels like it's my job. I have dozens, some of which I have read, but have no idea what they were about. In high school I was addicted. I am thankful that college has weened me of this addiction.

4.)I hate to lend out new books. Something about other people turning the pages first irks me.

5.) I don't like to talk on the phone to the point where in elementary school my mother thought I had no friends because I never called or invited them over.

6.) That being said I am a home body. I like to stay busy during the day but 9 times out of 10 at night you can find me in my room crocheting and watching shows on my computer.

7.) I love peanut butter to the point where I would have to do some serious soul searching if I ever fell in love with a man who was allergic to peanut butter. I hope I choose the man.

8.) I watch kids television even when I'm not babysitting. Part of it is research (I want to go into children's television) part of it is that it's entertaining. I love Lazy Town.

9.)Never had a boyfriend (shocking) but don't really feel the need to have one either.

10.) I like to buy books but not actually read them. My bookshelves at home is over flowing.

11.) I really wanted to be an author growing up but quite frankly I'm not a good writer.

12.) and I can't spell.

13.) I spend more time alone then I like, mainly because I'm always waiting for someone to come and find me.

14.)I really really really don't like Rachel Ray

15.) I really am a no fuss kind of girl. I love my t-shirts and jeans. I don't feel the need to impress people with clothing choices and I wish people would leave me alone about what I wear.

16.) I love the going to concerts. I love the mutual feelings of love for the musicians.

17.) I should be fluent in Spanish. I've studied Spanish from age 5-19 and my mother speaks it but I get flustered when speaking. I understand it really well.

18.) I am obsessed with the idea of having kids. I feel like that is the one thing I know for sure that is going to happen. I will raise at least one child even if I have to adopt. I have plans to become a foster parent. I have names already picked out.

19.) If you can already tell I love to read. I feel naked with out a book. When ever I leave the house I always have at least two with me.

20.) I know oddly alot about vibrators.

21.) I have a very active imagiantion which is why I can't see scary movies even now. I saw jaws when I was 8 and when it was time to go to bed I wouldn't stop crying until my dad came home and told me the movie wasn't real. And for the longest time I was convinced that sharks were in the vents at the deep end of the pool.

22.) The thought of dying scares me so I avoid thinking about it. I get really worked up thinking about it and the only people who can calm me down are my parents.

23.) I tried a bloody mary for the first time this year with my buddy Frank. Well it was a Vietnamese bloody mary and had to be the most painful drinking experience in a while. I think out friendship is stronger because of it.

24.)I am a closet Hansen fan.

25.) I still listen to the same music I listened to in 5th grade and I sometimes look back at the year as a golden time.